it’s 11:somethingP.M. and i wrote a thing

i have tendencies of
simply disappearing.
if i don’t want to be seen
by you, i will make that happen.

sometimes, i feel like
i’m just a facade.
you see me online…
you read my writing…
but you still don’t get
all of me.

there are pieces of myself
i have yet to discover.
there are pieces of myself
that i will take to my grave.

i find the human mind
very fascinating,
deep like the ocean.
never – ending.

Mini Spoiler Free Book Review: Strange the Dreamer by Laini Taylor

Title: Strange the Dreamer (Book 1)
Series: Strange the Dreamer
Author: Laini Taylor
Genre: YA Fantasy
Publisher: Hodder & Stoughton
Format: Hardcover
Rating: 5 out of 5 stars


Synopsis from Goodreads:

The dream chooses the dreamer, not the other way around—and Lazlo Strange, war orphan and junior librarian, has always feared that his dream chose poorly. Since he was five years old he’s been obsessed with the mythic lost city of Weep, but it would take someone bolder than he to cross half the world in search of it. Then a stunning opportunity presents itself, in the person of a hero called the Godslayer and a band of legendary warriors, and he has to seize his chance or lose his dream forever.

What happened in Weep two hundred years ago to cut it off from the rest of the world? What exactly did the Godslayer slay that went by the name of god? And what is the mysterious problem he now seeks help in solving?

The answers await in Weep, but so do more mysteries—including the blue-skinned goddess who appears in Lazlo’s dreams. How did he dream her before he knew she existed? And if all the gods are dead, why does she seem so real?

Welcome to Weep.

Honestly, it is so hard to review this book because I’m trying to avoid spoilers at all cost! I feel like if I go into detail with plot, summary, and the CHARACTERS, then I will definitely just spoil the whole experience of this book. Therefore this is going to be short and to the point.

Strange the Dreamer is about the story of a boy that goes by the name of Lazlo Strange. He is an orphan and left by monks to take care of him. We see Lazlo Strange grow up from child to young adulthood throughout the first quarter of the book. Lazlo Strange is fascinated with the lost city of Weep, he loves it so much that he became obsessed with it. Finding remnants of the city throughout this huge library in his town for years and years to come. He had a collection of books, pages, and thoughts all over his room. There is various reasons why he is called Strange the Dreamer but you should read the book to find out why!

Lazlo Strange is a soft nerdy boy that we all just want to take care of. I mean, at least I do. He has a sweet soul and is in search of all the answers to his questions in regards to the lost city of Weep. However, one mysterious day the Godslayer from Weep comes into town and things are about to take a drastic change in Lazlo’s life. Maybe all his questions will be finally answered. But things aren’t as always as they seem. And instead Lazlo is filled with even more questions.

There are a lot more stranger things happening in the lost city of Weep and definitely some secrets being kept that get unraveled throughout the book. We meet a lot of important characters and when I say a lot, I mean PLENTY! Lazlo who felt like he never had a purpose in life, finally feels like his purpose is coming to life.

Strange the Dreamer is definitely a fantasy book filled with fables/storytelling vibes. I loved Laini’s writing and rich detailing. This story is told in third person divided into different sections. I am even surprised that I loved this one so much since I never finished her other series. I would highly recommend this one. I apologize for being really vague here, but again. I feel like anything in this book can be a spoiler.

StrangeTheDreamer 03.pngthis photo is not mine, credit goes to Midnight Designs

have you read this book? what were your thoughts?
let’s talk in the comments!

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Q&A Part 2 – continuing the celebration of my one year blogiversary!

Hi everyone!!! Today I will be continuing the questions and answers for my one year blogiversary! I still cannot believe that my blog has turned one year old. whoooaaaaa!! to check part one, click here =)

Beth @ Reading Every Night

Q: What is your favourite poem that you’ve written; be it part of your love & you collection or not? 
A: ‘dear pretty little thing’ which was first featured on my blog and then became a part of my poetry book love, and you. i literally wrote that out of nowhere one night and didn’t even realize what i had written till i read it.

Q: What is your favourite poem by another author?
A: ooooo this one is hard but I’m going to go with a classic which is Alone by Edgar Allan Poe.

Q: Other than publishing your book and reaching your one year blogiversary what has been the high point of your year?
A: My high point of the year has been accepting my unapologetic self with whoever was or is around me.

Q: If you could recommend one book to everyone, what would it be?
A: Beth!!! You are killing me softly with these questions lol. I’m going to go with the first book that came to mind and that is Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo.

Q: Do you have any exciting blogging plans for next year?
A: I have some ideas but I haven’t thrown it out there because I get the worst luck when I speak out loud what I want to do lol. Therefore, I will work on it and see how it goes =D

Q: What would you say is your life goal, and have you achieved it yet?
A: My life goal was to publish a book and yes I definitely achieved it!! *starts dancing*

Azia @ The Uncharted Word

Q: When did you start writing poetry and what inspired you?
A: I started writing poetry at about 11 years old. Inspiration is a little weird here, so let me explain lol. I sing and song write, so poetry feels pretty much the same. I would say that music inspired my poetry and learning poetry from school as well.

Meghan @ Whimsically Meghan

Q: How has blogging rocked your world? 
A: BLOGGING IS AMAZING!! Honestly, blogging has helped me a lot with my anxiety. I am a very anxious person, add to that a lot of other mental instabilities that I have…I’m just overall not mentally okay half the time. So blogging has definitely helped me calm down and focus on more positive things rather than the negative. ALSO!!!! Blogging has made me discover sooooooo many different books out there and I also love how diverse the community is too. Meeting people from all around the world with our love for books and writing is so freaking awesome. I cannot express how much I love the community.

Poulami @ Daydreaming Books

Q: What is the one thing that you love the most about blogging and writing/poetry? 
A: Blogging, I love interacting with people and their opinions on books. Rather it be that they didn’t like it, are interested, or we find ourselves gushing over the book. I love that I can be myself without feeling judged as well. One thing I love most about writing/poetry is simply being myself through my writing and seeing how people interpret my writing. OMG I absolutely love reading the comments of what people thought about a piece and how they interpret the piece. It’s really great.

Hannah @ Mortal Reader

Q: Can I have your dog? I think he will like a summer in the UK?
A: Hannah, I am sorry to say this but no you cannot have my dog lol. He hates summer as well lol.

Q: What was the moment you realized you could make your poetry into a book and outside of your blog? Like was there a moment it hit you like this is going well I would love to try it? (Hope that makes sense)
A: Definitely makes a lot of sense! I hit that realization with ‘love, and you’ when I wrote most of it in one sitting. It really just came to me out of nowhere and I was like “hmm maybe I should make this into a book” and that’s when it unraveled. With my segment of People I Once Knew, which was a part of my blog first, a lot of people had mentioned to me that maybe I should make a book out of it. I took it into consideration and loved the idea so now I am running with it.

Q: What was a book that made you fall in love with reading?
A: The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett!! I remember my mom came with a bag full of free books that she found. I reached into the bag and took that one out, I read it and loved reading ever since.

Q: What’s one piece of advice you would give to your younger self if you could?
A: “people aren’t going to get you. they’re going to think you’re weird as fuck. that’s okay, let them think that way. different is beautiful.” -me

Jackie @ Death by Tsundoku

Q: What is your favorite book to re-read and why?
A: Surprise surprise!! I don’t re-read books *hides face* …I mean I would love to but I honestly don’t have the time and the time I do have, I prefer reading something new lol.

Q: What is the best thing your dog has ever done for you?
A: The best thing my dog has ever done and still does is be there for me the instant he feels me sad, crying, or going through an anxiety attack. He just knows and doesn’t let me go. He has literally licked my tears and hug me.

Q: What are the worlds best pizza toppings?
A: Meat Lovers Supreme by Pizza Hut. I love Chicken BBQ. Or Chicken, Bacon, and Ranch on pizza!

Q: If you could visit anywhere in the world RIGHT NOW where would you go?
A: I’d go to Bora Bora!!! It’s beautiful without the masses of human beings. Still on my bucket list!

Melissa @ Igndrynerdymel

Q: What was your fav book(s) growing up? That kept you going? And today?
A: Favorite growing up: The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett
Favorite Books that kept me going: The Blue Girl by Charles De Lint, and the Uglies Series by Scott Westerfeld.
Today? mmmm I can’t quite say because I read so many that’s hard lol.

Luna @ imaginarymargo

Q: Since releasing your book have you learned anything new about yourself?
A: Yes I have learned that on the days I feel low (emotionally and mentally) to not check how my book is doing cause it bums me out and gives me more anxiety.

Q: Where/What do you draw strength from?
A: Myself, my family, a few friends, and my writing.

Q: Do you believe in the supernatural?
A: Yes I believe in the supernatural.

Amanda @ Cover 2 Cover Mom

Q: If you died tomorrow, what would you want to be written on your tomb stone?
A: “And all I loved, I loved alone.” -Edgar Allan Poe

Q: If you could punch one person in the face (past, present, real, or fictional) who would it be?
A: JUST ONE AMANDA?!?!?! omggggggggg lol. So here’s a semi secret that I’m about to spill, there’s one person that I have always said if I crossed paths with, I wouldn’t think twice to punch in the face.

and that is all for now!!! if you want to discuss any of the questions and answers, feel free to comment! I hope you all have a lovely day ❤

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Q&A – Part 1! i can’t believe my blog turns 1 today

It’s my one year blogiversary today and I cannot believe it’s been a year already!!! A FREAKING YEAR!! I have learned so much throughout this year and have met some really amazing people. Blogging has been such a great experience for me. Thank you all for riding along with me. I am so happy to be here. I would’ve never thought I would make it this far and stay CONSISTENT! I know I miss out a week here and there but for the first time, I’m actually consistent and not abandoning ship here.

Reminder that my poetry book love, and you is 99¢ via kindle today!!! Click on the photo for the link!

I posted a Q&A announcement earlier this week and many of you asked me questions! This blog post will be dedicated to those questions! Let’s get started =)

Misty @ mistysbookspace:

Q: Will you be writing another poetry book?
A: Yes!! I have a few in mind! One of them is pretty much done.

Q: What is one thing you have learned while blogging that you think other/newbie bloggers should know??
A: Take part in the community! I think it’s important to give back to the community and I mean that as in commenting and liking other people’s post. And definitely don’t be afraid to be yourself on your blog!

Danielle @ Books, Vertigo and Tea

Q: If you could look back to when you very first decided you wanted to publish a full book what advice would you give yourself?
A: To relax and take it easy. And that your book isn’t for everyone so just because someone doesn’t like it, doesn’t mean I’m not a writer or that my experiences aren’t genuine. I have stressed myself and lost so much sleep over my first book baby that my body literally responded in a negative way to it. Which isn’t great, you know? But I’m a lot better now and on the days I feel low, I don’t check my stats and/or ratings at all.

Q: Is there anything all at that you feel you would do differently?
A: Yes! I wish would’ve looked for help (ex: therapy) sooner rather than later. I feel like that could’ve helped me a lot more with my mental state and anxiety.

Stephanie @ TeacherofYa

Q: When can you DM me and tell me about how you got your book published?
A: I’m self-published and I used createspace to publish my book.

Q: How long have you been blogging and what was your genre of choice when you started?
A: I have been blogging for exactly one year!! And I didn’t have a genre of choice because I love reading anything that interest me =D

Q: Did you always intend on your blog being an outlet for your poetry?
A: I definitely created my blog with the intent of sharing my love for books and sharing my writing pieces since booktube didn’t workout for that. I didn’t initially have poetry in mind but that just flowed out of me naturally, so yes? lol

Amanda @ Caffeinated Constellations

Q: If a poet uses a pen name do you recommend they register the copyright with the US copyright office before publishing?
A: oooooooo this one is hard because I use my real name and never looked up any of this info, I would definitely say though to register with US copyright office for sure! Make sure poet has all their paperwork ready before publishing the book so that way when the book is out, they have no problems with copyright infringement and the IRS (royalties).

Q:What advice would you give to a poet who really wants to self-publish but has self-doubt?
A: I would ASK if they were to place self-doubt aside, would they feel that their book is ready to publish? And if the answer was yes, I would then advice them that as long as they have that hope, let that hope drive them to publishing. I learned that self-doubt (in my case) is always there but as long as you have the drive and this is a goal that you want to accomplish, you have to pretty much fight with yourself and self-doubt. But when you win over yourself, it’s an amazing feeling that no one can give you but yourself.

Shanah @ Bionic Book Worm

Q: In your first year of blogging what achievement gave you the most sense of satisfaction and accomplishment?
A: my consistency in blogging and posting my writing pieces was the greatest achievement! I honestly tend to give up on things which is why I am super in shock that I’m even doing a one year blogiversary today because I thought I wasn’t going to make it this far lol.  Also! Posting my writing which is something very personal is really huge to me =)

Tiana @ The Book Raven

Q: What is it about poetry that draws you to it? 
A: I love how simple and complex poetry is all at the same time. I love how one stanza can be so short but pack so much power. It’s hard to even explain, the fact that you can say/write something so empowering with simple words draws me to poetry.

Q: And was there anyone in your life that introduced you to poetry?
A: No one specifically introduced me to poetry. My earliest memory of learning poetry was in school.

Lilly @ Lair of Books

Q: Will we be seeing more from your People I Once Knew series?
A: This will be a book in 2018! However, for copyright reasons, I will not be posting anymore of those poems here on the blog.

Q: What would you say has been the most valuable lesson you’ve learned while blogging? Any tips/advice for new bloggers?
A: Most valuable lesson is consistency with posting blogs and giving back to the community! Both of these things go hand in hand with one another! Tips for new bloggers is just to be yourself, make sure your blog is easy to navigate, and don’t be afraid to think outside the box. Sometimes thinking outside the box (ex: having a unique approach to writing reviews, tags, memes, etc) can be a really good thing for your blog.

Jessica @ Breathe and Read

Q: What was your favourite part of publishing your collection? 
A: Wow this is such a hard question! I think my favorite part of publishing was when I held the final copy in my hand. Knowing that one of my biggest dreams came true when I clicked the published button on CreateSpace was bittersweet. Side note to Jessica, I hope you publish your book! I feel like every writer knows when their book is ready and shouldn’t add more, it’s like a gut feeling. You got this!

Sydney @ Fire and Rain Books

Q: What is the first book you remember reading? 
A: The first book I remember reading is Cat in the Hat by Dr. Seuss


to be continued tomorrow!

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Poetry Book Haul

Here I am with another book haul! I mean, did the title give it away? lol! As a writer of poetry who also has a book, I feel like it’s so important to support other writers in the genre as well. I also love to read poetry. I have found myself not feeling alone a lot of the times while reading others work. There are so many indie poetry authors out right now that I feel like their voices need to be heard. Some poetry isn’t for everyone and that’s okay! While some like dark poetry, others might like positive happy poetry and some just don’t like poetry at all. I hope you find something here that you may like! =)

The order goes by purchased date!
Titles link to Goodreads

  • Honeybee by Trista Mateer
    Having been previously described as an “aggressively personal poet”, Trista Mateer takes this to heart and then to paper in her first collection. Presented more or less in the order it was written, the poetry in Honeybee is in turns bitter, tender, and messy. Following the course of a little more than a year, the poems showcased in Honeybee chronicle the on-again off-again process of letting go.
  • The Princess Saves Herself in this One by Amanda Lovelace (Andrews McMeel)
    “Ah, life- the thing that happens to us while we’re off somewhere else blowing on dandelions & wishing ourselves into the pages of our favorite fairy tales.”
    A poetry collection divided into four different parts: the princess, the damsel, the queen, & you. the princess, the damsel, & the queen piece together the life of the author in three stages, while you serves as a note to the reader & all of humankind. Explores life & all of its love, loss, grief, healing, empowerment, & inspirations.
  • Empty Hotel Rooms Meant For Us by Christina Hart
    This collection of poetry focuses on dismembered loves, present and past, as past lovers aren’t actually in the past for the author. She carries parts of them with her, even though their hearts are no longer hers.


  • Her Treasures by Fida Islaih
    Islaih shares her travel to Malaysia. She continues to share more of her thoughts on Palestine. More poems include her love for her sisters, faith and words.
  • Tell Me Where It Hurts by J.R. Rogue
    Bestselling author J.R. Rogue returns with her second volume of poetry, Tell Me Where It Hurts, a raw, heartbreaking, and honest glimpse into the demons she has faced in her 33 years.
  • Mad Woman by Kat Savage
    Author of Learning to Speak, Kat Savage, returns with Mad Woman whish is comprised of 40 pieces that capture her stream on conscious, her confessions, and her strange thoughts. In Mad Woman, she bears it all and embraces her madness driven by loneliness and disappointment.


  • soft magic. by Upsile Chisala
    ‘soft magic.’ is the debut collection of prose and poetry by Malawian writer, Upile Chisala. This book explores the self, joy, blackness, gender, matters of the heart, the experience of Diaspora, spirituality and most of all, how we survive. ‘soft magic.’ is a shared healing journey.
  • Walking through the Forest: love, loss and other tall trees by Elizabeth Ann
    love, loss, pain, healing, poetry.
    Elizabeth shares her experience with heartache and grief by embracing acceptance and self-love in a collection of poetry written with straight forward vulnerability.
    Join her walk through the forest, surrounded by love, loss, and other tall trees.
  • Stuff I’ve Been Feeling Lately by Alicia Cook (Andrews McMeel)
    In Alicia Cook’s second poetic effort, designed in the style of an old mixtape, she sets her thoughts to a nostalgic tune. There is no Table of Contents. Instead, there is a “Track List,” making it easy to refer to them to your friends with a, “Hey did you read track seven?!” There are no chapters. Instead, the book is divided into two parts, or as one would say in the 90’s, two “sides.” Side A holds poetry that touches on all aspects of the human condition like life, death, love, moving on, evolving, growing up, hometowns, family dynamic, life after trauma, and make-ups and breakups. Side B holds the “remixes” of these poems, in the form of blackout poetry, also known as “found poetry.” Side B gives the material a fresh twist by creating new poetry out of Side A. There is also a very special surprise at the end of each track.


  • Yellow by Alannah Radburn
    This book is a collection of poems. Yellow explores the feelings of love, happiness, heartbreak, grief, resilience and healing. It is an homage to the author’s most recent relationship. Strong feminist and LGBT+ undertones emanate from within the pages. Though it celebrates a relationship between two women, its themes and emotions are universal.
  • I Am More Than A Daydream by Jennae Cecelia
    How often do you daydream? For most, it is many times a day. We stare out the window instead of the task in front of us. We fantasize about where we would much rather be, the significant other we long for, our ideal job, the body we hope to see in the mirror, a healthier mindset, pure happiness in our lives and the lives of others, peace in this chaotic world. However, how many of us daydreamers believe these pleasant thoughts will truly turn into our reality? Daydreams are more than just short bursts of happiness that only our minds can see. I know I am more than a daydream; and you are, too.
  • lavender petals and a wild heart by Cheyenne Raine
    A lavender sky of words, thoughts, poetry and prose written with love and curiosity. A collection inspired by the emotions that flow from the heart due to the gentle presence of a wild and adventurous soul. This book dives into the mixture of warm and lovely feelings that blossom when adoring another’s heart.
  • Table for One by Laura Ashley Laraque
    This book talks about a female who has experienced what many have, heart break. In the midst of her pain, she takes on a journey to learn to love herself. Also, expressing emotions and looking back on memories that although left scars, have led her to sit at her table alone. Finding yourself is crucial and she explains how she accomplishes this day by day.
  • Bones in the Garden by McKayla Debonis
    Here lies the anatomy of the first Heartbreak.
    take my advice, you can grow, you can heal, you can learn, no matter what.
    Just pick yourself up and keep going.

and that is it for now! have you read any of these poetry books? let me know in the comments so we can talk ❤

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it was 8:43am


they exist through
my mental illness

the torment of
thoughts i go
through in my
mind is

i long for a day
that i wake up okay,
with strength and
courage to do
what is needed

yet for now,
they continuously
l i n g e r

showing in hues
of exhaustion
and anxiety

Q&A announcement!!

hello everyone!!! i hope you are all doing well, i have been quite exhausted lately so please send me some positive vibes lol. thank you! this post will be short and to the point because i will be saying a lot more in another post!

on Saturday May, 20th i will make one year blogging, ONE YEARand i still can’t quite believe it. as my one year blogiversary, i will be answering alllllll the questions! therefore, please please please leave me any questions you have here on this post. questions can be anything really. like about my blogging experience, personal questions, writing, about my dog, anything!

thank you to everyone who’s been there with me through this blogging journey. i am super grateful and really happy that i have met you all. some have even become personal friends and it means the world to me. blogger friends really do make for great friends!

ALSO!!!!!!! as part of my one year blogiversary, my poetry book love, and you will be 99cents for the day on kindle! whoop whoop! but if you have kindle unlimited, you can already check it out here.

and that is all!!! thank you for stopping by ❤