jodios pendejos

you say feminist like if i’m going home
with you tonight. you say feminist like if
we flirtin’ all night. like if..life if i’m gettin’
wet for you tonight. oh, you ain’t know?
it’s the sahara desert down there.

you say feminist the same way you
say babygirl and mami. you know i
like that shit. you say it like if..like if
you’re waiting for me to call you papi.
the only man i call papi is my papi.
the man who gave me life and wings to fly.

you say feminist in the same breath you
degrade women. like if..like if i’m supposed
to take that as a compliment. like if a man
runs up on her, you expect me to say that
she deserves it cause her skirt too short.

oh you ain’t know? i like wearing the skirts
and the dresses that hug the curves i was
blessed with. does that mean i deserved it too?

you say feminist like if gold drips out your
mouth and i’m supposed to swallow it.
thank you for the flaunting, i’ll see myself out now.

Waiting on Wednesday

Waiting on Wednesday is a weekly meme hosted by Breaking The Spine. Every Wednesday you discuss a book that you are highly anticipating.

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Ninth House (Alex Stern #1)
by Leigh Bardugo

Release Date: October 1st, 2019
Publisher: Flatiron Books
Genre: Adult Fantasy

The mesmerizing adult debut from #1 New York Times bestselling author Leigh Bardugo

Galaxy “Alex” Stern is the most unlikely member of Yale’s freshman class. Raised in the Los Angeles hinterlands by a hippie mom, Alex dropped out of school early and into a world of shady drug dealer boyfriends, dead-end jobs, and much, much worse. By age twenty, in fact, she is the sole survivor of a horrific, unsolved multiple homicide. Some might say she’s thrown her life away. But at her hospital bed, Alex is offered a second chance: to attend one of the world’s most elite universities on a full ride. What’s the catch, and why her?

Still searching for answers to this herself, Alex arrives in New Haven tasked by her mysterious benefactors with monitoring the activities of Yale’s secret societies. These eight windowless “tombs” are well-known to be haunts of the future rich and powerful, from high-ranking politicos to Wall Street and Hollywood’s biggest players. But their occult activities are revealed to be more sinister and more extraordinary than any paranoid imagination might conceive.

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Just knowing that one of my favorite authors is coming out with an ADULT FANTASY novel has me squealing. I am very happy that some of my favorite YA Authors are slowly transitioning to Adult since I am not much of a YA reader anymore. I can’t wait to read this! Leigh Bardugo has made an endless point that this is ADULT and will have some  disturbing scenes which I’m honestly all ready for. Also, I’m excited to see what she can bring with another world since pretty much all we know is The Grishaverse. I love seeing authors expand. This book sounds right up my ally. I love secret societies, mysteries, and schools. Funny enough, I’m currently watching The Order on Netflix and the synopsis reminds me a tad bit of it. October can’t come any sooner.


Are you excited for this Ninth House? Thoughts on a new world by Leigh Bardugo? Let’s chat in the comments!


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Daisy Jones & The Six Non-Spoiler Review

reid_9781524798628_jkt_all_r1.inddTitle: Daisy Jones and The Six
Author: Taylor Jenkins Reid
Genre: Historical Fiction, Adult
Publisher: Ballantine Books
Format: Hardcover
Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
Pub. Date: March 5, 2019

Synopsis:
Everyone knows Daisy Jones & The Six, but nobody knows the reason behind their split at the absolute height of their popularity . . . until now.

Daisy is a girl coming of age in L.A. in the late sixties, sneaking into clubs on the Sunset Strip, sleeping with rock stars, and dreaming of singing at the Whisky a Go Go. The sex and drugs are thrilling, but it’s the rock and roll she loves most. By the time she’s twenty, her voice is getting noticed, and she has the kind of heedless beauty that makes people do crazy things.

Also getting noticed is The Six, a band led by the brooding Billy Dunne. On the eve of their first tour, his girlfriend Camila finds out she’s pregnant, and with the pressure of impending fatherhood and fame, Billy goes a little wild on the road.

Daisy and Billy cross paths when a producer realizes that the key to supercharged success is to put the two together. What happens next will become the stuff of legend.

The making of that legend is chronicled in this riveting and unforgettable novel, written as an oral history of one of the biggest bands of the seventies. Taylor Jenkins Reid is a talented writer who takes her work to a new level with Daisy Jones & The Six, brilliantly capturing a place and time in an utterly distinctive voice.


Trigger Warnings: Substance abuse/addiction

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Told in interview format, Daisy Jones and The Six are about a singer (Daisy Jones) and a band (The Six) that are on the rise in the 70’s music scene. They are both getting noticed quickly and a producer, Teddy, thinks it would be a great idea to have both Daisy and The Six unite for ultimate success. Before the becoming of Daisy Jones & The Six, we learn about Daisy and the lead singer of The Six, Billy Dunne, separately. Both addicted to the fast life, sex, drugs, alcohol, and a wild life on the road, will that stop now that both have unite to make one of the greatest hit albums of all history? What happens when they abruptly decide to split? If you read the book, you will find out!

“I had absolutely no interest in being somebody else’s muse.
I am not a muse.
I am the somebody.

End of fucking story.”

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Because the book is told in an interview format, there isn’t much to talk about here in regards to prose, and if the book was lyrical, etc. I think this book couldn’t have been written any other way. I did read this book in physical format and I found the voices to be distinct (I heard that the audiobook was amazing). I didn’t have trouble with the characters voices or feeling like they were all the same. I loved how the author split the book into different time years. Truth be told this is my first book by Taylor Jenkins Reid and I am so mad at myself for not reading any of her books sooner. Taylor Jenkins Reid knows how to write a fucking good ass book that will leave you sleeping late into the night and turning every single page.

Because the characters are recounting things that happened about 40 years ago, there are times where you don’t know what the truth is. Here are some super unlikable characters, telling you what they think happened at a certain time frame or event and with all of that, I never found myself confused or upset because of how realistic the author executed it.

The writing of this book and the way the author presents events, the retellings of the characters, and era of time that this book is in, literally transported me into the 70’s every time I opened this book.

“I wouldn’t have come up with something like that. Which is what we
all want from art, isn’t it? When someone pins down something that feels
like it lives inside us? Takes a piece of your heart out and shows it to you?
It’s like they are introducing you to a part of yourself.”

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This section can be very long but I’m going to try to cut it short. I find that Taylor Jenkins Reids knows how to write super complex characters that are extremely unlikable but will still have you rooting for them in the end? Do you get what I mean? Due to the format of the book, everyone from the band to producers, sound engineers, significant others, family, friends, etc. had a part. Which I found fascinating because not only do we get to hear from Daisy Jones and the band members from The Six, we also get an outside perspective from their end. Those characters played a part in the foundation of storyline.

I loved Daisy Jones ruthlessness and I loved Billy Dunne’s selfishness. These are two easy things that can get on anyone’s nerves but it worked for them. Every single person that we meet has their own personality but their love for music is one and the same. Daisy Jones is wild and full of rebellion, she’s her own and doesn’t care about what anyone has to say, she lives for her art and wants to be great at it. Billy Dunne is a perfectionist when it comes to the music and he was a people pleaser when it only came to the people he loved. When it came to music, it was his way or the highway. However, when it came to his life, that’s where my favorite character, Camila Martinez, comes in.

Camila Martinez is my absolute favorite character. I literally wanted to cry when I found out she’s Latina because she is the literal definition of a Latina madly in love and will do anything and everything to save her family because family comes first. Her passion, her devotion, her love is heavy and beautiful and toxic. And all I could do is admire her for the woman she is.

Karen is another character that I loved. I don’t want to go into details why because that would be spoiling the book. However, I loved how she stands up for what she wants and even though she acknowledges that the music scene is run by men, that doesn’t stop her from pursuing her music career.

Like I said before, there are many characters to this book. If you read it, who was your fave and which did you dislike the most? I couldn’t stand Eddie, he got on all my nerves.

“Art doesn’t owe anything to anyone.”

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Is it obvious that I loved this book? Lol I hope so. The author really nailed it with the portrayal of the 70’s. This book is very heavy when it comes to drug/substance abuse, it’s something that is spoken about a lot because of how the 70’s music scene was back then. I enjoyed that aspect of the book because it didn’t sugarcoat the realities that musicians faced back then. Taylor Jenkins Reid made me feel like this band truly exist. I cannot wait for the show because that means we get to hear the songs and how they’re actually played which also means I get to play the album on repeat (I don’t know if this is definite but a girl can hope and dream). Daisy Jones & The Six is reread material. The plot twist at the very end was SO WELL DONE. I was not expecting that plot twist at all because my mind was reeling and I was already crying anyways, so the tears? There was more to that. Everything made even more sense when that plot twist took place. Beautiful, phenomenal, well done. I will not give up on this author.

“The things you run from, baby, I run to
And I know it scares you through and through
No one knows you like I do
Try to tell me that ain’t true
Oh, we could be lovely
If this could get ugly”


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Have you read Daisy Jones & The Six or do you plan to? What are your favorite Taylor Jenkins Reids books? Let’s chat in the comments!


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love, and you turns one! and other news

Kindlei cannot believe it’s already been a year since my debut poetry collection came out and now it’s a year old! ahh!!! thank you all so much for your love and support throughout my journey. it all started here on this blog, posting poetry and getting tons of support. some of the pieces that are in love, and you were first published in this very blog and wow i can’t believe its come a long way. thank you thank you thank you! without you, the book wouldn’t be where it’s at now. i’m still in shock with how many lives this book has touched. i’ve received the loveliest messages of what this poetry collection has done to people’s soul. in the beginning i didn’t understand why i went through what i did but it all makes sense now.

 

 

as a thank you for the love and support alongside the celebration of turning one;

from now till the 8th of april
love, and you is FREE ON KINDLE WORLDWIDE!!!

here are some links, please check your
countries amazon if i have not listed it:
amazon usa | amazon uk | amazon ca

never heard of my book? it’s fine! here’s the synopsis and you can add it to goodreads here

one day i met a guy
who stole my heart,
we created a world
for ourselves.
and another day
he broke my heart
and shattered
my soul.

i took the tattered
pieces of this
broken soul and
became anew.

– here lies the hurting, the healing, and the learning

(please be advised this book has mature content)


in other news

i know this was a very long time ago, but remember that poetry blog series i had in 2016 titled people i once knew? guess what?! it’s officially going to be a book with a new title ‘welcome to ghost town’ and it will be released in october of this year! add it to goodreads here.

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in case you’re wondering, i did change the name because i thought it was more fitting since it’s about the people who have haunted me and left a mark. if you’ve been around since people i once knew days, remember how i used to title them “people i once knew – part 1” “people i once knew – part 10” etc. ? well i left the parts in but now each part has a name with an additional 3-5 poems. i’m more nervous about this collection than anything because it’s different. there’s no healing pieces, there’s no self-discovery, it’s all about most people who have marked me. i hope you like it!


it’s national poetry month

it’s national poetry month and amber @ YA Indulgences is dedicating her blog this month to poets. each and everyday there is a different feature. today on my one year anniversary, i wrote a guest post titled “benefits of reading poetry”. i would love if you’d check it out and leave some love. amber is also running a giveaway. click on the photo to be directed to her blog.

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that is all for today! i would love to chat in the comments! i know it’s been a while ❤

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this piece comes with no ending

tell me then
about all these changes
the life imagined
a place of familiarity

where
problems
no
longer
exist

tell me about
how we came here
the wrongdoings
of our actions
and we no longer
dream of the
life imagined

tell me then
how love no longer
lives in our homes
and about the times
we forgot to live
because we became
so busy in our minds

poetry book haul

hello everyone! i am here today with a poetry book haul. i was gifted a barnes and noble gift-card for christmas and was like ” P O E T R Y  B O O K S !!!” lol so without further ado lets get started!

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36100966Sea of Strangers by Lang Leav

Synopsis: Sea of Strangers by Lang Leav picks up from her previous international bestselling books including Love & Misadventure, Lullabies, and The Universe of Us, and sets sail for a grand new adventure.

This completely original collection of poetry and prose will not only delight her avid fans but is sure to capture the imagination of a whole new audience. With the turn of every page, Sea of Strangers invites you to go beyond love and loss to explore themes of self-discovery and empowerment as you navigate your way around the human heart.

 

 

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36282706the boys i’ve loved & the end of the world by catarine hancock

Synopsis: ‘the boys i’ve loved and the end of the world’ is the long awaited poetry and prose collection by catarine hancock, popularly known by the user “evanescent.love” on instagram. known for writing unique, raw and captivating pieces on everything from love and politics, to abuse and womanhood, catarine knows how to tug at both your heartstrings and your mind.

cover art by mikaela bailey.

 

 

 

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37004309from scars to beauty by nicki naomi

Synopsis: From Scars to Beauty is a poetry collection based on the epiphanies of a woman as she heads down the road to self-discovery during a difficult time in her marriage. She is blind sighted by the events of her traumatic childhood that rushed back to her during the process, although she had been pushing them aside for many years. She begins to write, hoping to organize her thoughts. Instead what she found was: truth, healing, a reborn passion, a voice, forgiveness and most of all, herself.

 

 

 

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36812982soft in the middle by shelby eileen

Synopsis:
“there are so many words I’ve left unsaid
so instead of going another year or five or ten
in brutal, crushing silence
don’t waste this opportunity
don’t be scared when the full weight of my heart
tests the strength of your hands
I’m trusting you with something I barely trust myself with
this knowing
this telling
this momentous uprooting
I’m here
I am
I am right here in these words”

A debut poetry collection about love, heartbreak, body image, how absolutely breathtaking girls are, flower blooms and starlight.

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36680203Lovely Seeds by R.H. Swaney

Synopsis: ‘Lovely Seeds’ is a collection of poetry that touches on the topics of mental health, self-love, and loving others with bite-size pieces that are meant to provoke thought and self-exploration.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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and that is all for today! i really cannot wait to read these. i don’t know which one to pick up first lol. i did read a sampler and reviewed shelby’s collection before. however, now that i have the full book in front of me, it’s a must read. all of these poets have instagram that you can check out for more poetry. a kindly reminder to please cross-review on both goodreads and amazon, it helps us indie authors in a great way. that is all for today, thank you!


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Fictional Books I Want to Read in 2018

Hey everyone! I wanted to share what books I really want to get to in this New Year! Since I don’t read as much as I used to, I wanted to keep this post small and to the point. Majority of these books have been released already and some I am still waiting for! The list is an no particular order. Without further ado, let’s get started! (all links lead you to the goodreads page)

 

The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas a YA Realistic Fiction take on the black lives matter movement and police brutality.

Tash Hearts Tolstoy by Kathryn Ormsbree a YA Contemporary book about a girl who’s an “overnight” internet sensation and when an online flirtation can happen in real life, how will she tell him that she’s a romantic asexual?

Ringer (Replica #2) by Lauren Oliver a continuation of the YA SciFi Dystopian novel Replica. After discovering some uncomfortable truths about the Haven Institute and cloning, we see what happens afterwards in Ringer.

Hunting Prince Dracula (Stalking Jack the Ripper #2) by Kerri Maniscalco the continuation of the YA Historical Fiction Mystery Stalking Jack the Ripper, we follow the main character Audrey in another adventure featuring Vlad the Impaler. 

Obsidio (The Illuminae Files #3) by Amie Kaufman and Jay Kristoff in continuation of the amazing YA SciFi novels Illuminae and Gemina, comes Obsidio with more action and adventure. This is the finale of the teams and oh my heart be still.

Wonder Woman: Warbringer (DC Icons #1) by Leigh Bardugo a YA Fantasy following one of my favorite heroes, Diana, who has risked exile for saving a mortal which changes everything.

Unearthed (Unearthed #1) by Amie Kaufman and Megan Spooner a YA SciFi that has to do with earth getting a message from a long extinct alien race, infiltration, secrets, and survival.

Children of Blood and Bone (Legacy of Orïsha #1) by Tomy Adeyemi a YA Fantasy about magic disappearing in Orïsha under orders of a ruthless king, yet the main character is struggling with controlling her powers and feelings towards the enemy.

Daughter of the Pirate King (Daughter of the Pirate King #1) by Tricia Levenseller  a YA fantasy that has a female pirate, adventure, and hidden map!

Renegades (Renegades #1) by Marissa Meyer a YA Fantasy about secret identities, powers, vengeance, and justice.

The Last Magician by Lisa Maxwell a YA Fantasy filled with time-travel and historical fiction, one character has to travel back in time to 1902 to steal an ancient book. However Old New York is filled with gangs, secret societies, and too much magic.

Godsgrave (The Nevernight Chronicle #2) by Jay Kristoff this Adult Fantasy continues the journey of our ruthless assassin main character where she is still looking for revenge.

The Girl in the Tower (Winternight Trilogy #2) by Katherine Arden a Fantasy Historical Fiction, this story continues the adventure of main character Vasya and what lies ahead for her.


and that is all for this post! any of these books you’re looking forward too? or you’ve read already? i would love to know your thoughts in the comments!


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new year, new changes on chicnerdreads

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hey everyone! happy new year! i hope you all had a wonderful holiday and i hope that if you’re like me, you can breathe easy now that the holidays are over lol. i know that 2017 was a total blog fail for me and i’ve been hard on myself, especially since i don’t read as much as i used to. i have a whole blog post about what’s been going on here. i’ve been trying to maintain the same themes on my blog meanwhile having internal turmoil when i want to write about other things. at last!!!!!!!! i told myself to just do it and now you will see new things (i mean if you stay of course lol). i even changed my blogger header to this:

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my blog will consist of the usual:

  • book reviews
  • tags
  • poetry
  • bookish memes
  • book hauls

but now it will include these new type of post:

  • poet interviews
  • make-up hauls
  • make-up related post (routines, skincare, etc)
  • fashion haul
  • fashion related post (seasonal inspo, etc)
  • plan with me post
  • planner sticker hauls
  • conspiracy theory thursday
  • discussion type of post

and maybe some other things. who knows. i am super excited for all the new things coming this new year on chicnerdreads. i am learning to accept things as they are and to be kinder to myself. thanks for sticking around. i really appreciate it ❤

how was your new year?


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i would’ve never thought i would suck at blogging, yet here i am

well hello there, hi, long time no see. wow this feels so weird. i’m sitting in front of my screen with a blog post open and typing away. i miss those days, of losing myself in a blog post. i don’t even know where i’m going with this post but like i just need to write this out.

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you know i’ve been asked by 2 important people in my life if i’ve given up blogging for good and the answer is no i haven’t. so now you’re probably wondering, well then why haven’t you been blogging if you didn’t give up? if someone would’ve said to me that my life was going to change this much when i published a book, then maybe i would’ve expected this. the less blogging, little to no reading, being busy with writing, and life period with many exclamation points of adulting. i would’ve warned all of you if i knew this.

i refuse to shut down my blog. i have been stressing a little too much over my blog, my presence here, stressing over coming back, being accepted, and keeping things with how they used to be. instead, i’ve been thinking of changing things up here on chicnerdreads and starting fresh for the new year. with all these changes in less than a year, i have changed too. i’m still playing with some ideas for the blog and trying to balance my very hectic time-limited schedule. cause if you don’t know, i’m currently working on other projects, i have family here from PR that came immediately after Hurricane Maria, and now the holidays are here.

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all in all, i wanted to say hey hi, i miss you all and think about you often.

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