i don’t know if this makes sense

i have walked these
dreadful feet through
mud filled with agony,
hate, hurt, burden, and
loss. at the end of
the hard walk, i’ve
still found myself
standing in a dark
tunnel of madness.

the best times for me
are always in my
silence wondering
about nothing. yet,
still figuring myself
out all at the same time.

feeling some type of
comfort after a breath
in those times of needing
myself rather than
anybody else.

because i am loner with a soul and a heart of stone

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this poem wasn’t planned

i would never
suggest you
trying to be me.

for it is tiring
and sometimes
i cannot wrap
the things that
happen in my
brain.

for i always
feel the sense
of loss and
dream of it
often.

i hurt myself
with my own
thoughts.

i hurt myself
with every
moment i
think about
my past.

and when things settle,
there are times that i
don’t know who i am.
and how i got here.

my love poems are ghost stories

my lover, oh lover,
look what you’ve
done to me.
you’ve captured me
and broken my bones.
i have spilt blood
over you, and the
magic in my veins
has dispersed over the
n o t h i n g n e s s
you and i no
longer hold.
the tether to my soul
has been stripped away.

she says as a ghost
while sinking the
ship he is sailing.
she is the raging dark
storm he never saw coming.

you keep taunting me in my dreams.

if i were a ghost,
i wouldn’t haunt you.
i would haunt the
freedoms i never had
while being with you.

the oceans i never saw with you sing to me.

some kind of self-love

i have found to be
that love is not
as cruel as people
make it out to be.

that although
painful, it is
worthwhile
to have love.

the love that
you have for
yourself,
within
y o u r s e l f .

the love for
yourself
that carries you
and takes you
across oceans.

a type of self-love
that no one can
take away,
no matter who
comes along.

a love for
yourself
that is worth
breathing in
and living.

a self-love that
you will wade for.

a letter to the moon

dear moon,

come sing to me
on the nights
i feel lonely.

know that you can
tell me your
darkest secrets
for i have them too.

please share with me
what the stars
have planned,
yet keep me
in suspense.

may i keep
you company?
you remind me
of myself.

sometimes i look
at you and wonder
if the clouds blanket
you with safety
when you don’t
want to be seen..

because the weight
of the world
probably rest on you,
knowing that i am
not the only person
writing this letter
to the moon.

Table For One by Laura Ashley Laraque Mini Poetry Review

Title: Table for One
Author: Laura Ashley Laraque
Genre: Poetry
Publisher: CreateSpace
Format: Paperback
Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

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Synopsis from Goodreads:

This book talks about a female who has experienced what many have, heart break. In the midst of her pain, she takes on a journey to learn to love herself. Also, expressing emotions and looking back on memories that although left scars, have led her to sit at her table alone. Finding yourself is crucial and she explains how she accomplishes this day by day.


This was an amazing and beautiful debut collection. It was filled with honesty and raw emotion. The author takes the reader through a journey of a toxic relationship, realizations, and self-love. The book is divided into different sections with titles like “Your Appetizer” and “Three-Course Emotions to Healing” just to name a few.

I loved how the author expresses herself through poetry, rhyme, and prose. Giving us different styles but still laying her heart out to us. Laura Ashley definitely takes you on a ride of emotions where she talks about the ups and down of a relationship. She tells us what she went through mentally and emotionally through her writing and the toll that us humans take when being involved deeply with another human.

She even has poems mentioning her religion and believing in God. I liked that because Laura shows us all of her! I would definitely recommend this to anyone who’s experienced lost love and needs to find some strength. Laura will give you that !


some of my favorites:

Selfish

I always thought being selfish had negativity involved
Until I experienced situations that made my sanity dissolved

Being selfish if appropriate depending on the context
When you realize all your energy and emotions are put to the
test

Instead of investing and attaching yourself to please others
Take your own soul and provide what it needs to recover


You used me

You confused me

You abused me

Even bruised me

Only to excuse me


Fatal Attraction

You dig and I crawl.
I love and I fall.

You watch and I stare.
While you bury my heart, it’s unfair.

I gave it all and you received.
You promised me the same but I was deceived.

I thought it was love and it was real.
But you played around like it was no big deal.

I’d cry and I’d hurt,
While you craved and you flirt.

Not for me, not with me,
But with the fish swimming amongst the sea.

It’s okay, you murdered my being with no remorse.
Because, honestly, the heart you buried took a different
course.

No, you won’t mourn who used to love you with all her might.
It’s the new girl who she became and escaped into the
night.


Table for One is currently on sale for 99¢ via Kindle in USA and the UK!
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my poetry book is on sale!

 

IMG_0594hey everyone! i hope you are all having a wonderful day and weekend to come! just wanted to let you all know that while i’m at BookCon, the paperback version of my poetry book is officially on sale for $6.38 via Amazon for the next few days. it’s also on sale on other parts of the world via Amazon. if they ship to you, check it out! be aware that my poetry book has mature content. and if you aren’t into paperbacks, i also have an ebook version with kindle unlimited as well! below are the links!

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synopsis:
one day i met a guy
who stole my heart,
we created a world
for ourselves.
and another day
he broke my heart
and shattered
my soul.

i took the tattered
pieces of this
broken soul and
became anew.

– here lies the hurting, the healing, and the learning


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