blue banisters

it’s all muted blue
the walls,
the love,
the sunflowers,
and there are no colors to paint it over
i cannot find them

it has been 5109 days
and i might just start counting again
it has been 1309 days
and it might just be the last

what is will?
the fox died some time ago
and the sunflowers are wilting too
what is purpose?
if the music doesn’t feel alive
the words are only a collection of jumbled letters
and i only see blue at the end of the tunnel

– gretchen gomez