my love poems are ghost stories

my lover, oh lover,
look what you’ve
done to me.
you’ve captured me
and broken my bones.
i have spilt blood
over you, and the
magic in my veins
has dispersed over the
n o t h i n g n e s s
you and i no
longer hold.
the tether to my soul
has been stripped away.

she says as a ghost
while sinking the
ship he is sailing.
she is the raging dark
storm he never saw coming.

you keep taunting me in my dreams.

if i were a ghost,
i wouldn’t haunt you.
i would haunt the
freedoms i never had
while being with you.

the oceans i never saw with you sing to me.


some kind of self-love

i have found to be
that love is not
as cruel as people
make it out to be.

that although
painful, it is
to have love.

the love that
you have for
y o u r s e l f .

the love for
that carries you
and takes you
across oceans.

a type of self-love
that no one can
take away,
no matter who
comes along.

a love for
that is worth
breathing in
and living.

a self-love that
you will wade for.

a letter to the moon

dear moon,

come sing to me
on the nights
i feel lonely.

know that you can
tell me your
darkest secrets
for i have them too.

please share with me
what the stars
have planned,
yet keep me
in suspense.

may i keep
you company?
you remind me
of myself.

sometimes i look
at you and wonder
if the clouds blanket
you with safety
when you don’t
want to be seen..

because the weight
of the world
probably rest on you,
knowing that i am
not the only person
writing this letter
to the moon.


Table For One by Laura Ashley Laraque Mini Poetry Review

Title: Table for One
Author: Laura Ashley Laraque
Genre: Poetry
Publisher: CreateSpace
Format: Paperback
Rating: 5 out of 5 stars


Synopsis from Goodreads:

This book talks about a female who has experienced what many have, heart break. In the midst of her pain, she takes on a journey to learn to love herself. Also, expressing emotions and looking back on memories that although left scars, have led her to sit at her table alone. Finding yourself is crucial and she explains how she accomplishes this day by day.

This was an amazing and beautiful debut collection. It was filled with honesty and raw emotion. The author takes the reader through a journey of a toxic relationship, realizations, and self-love. The book is divided into different sections with titles like “Your Appetizer” and “Three-Course Emotions to Healing” just to name a few.

I loved how the author expresses herself through poetry, rhyme, and prose. Giving us different styles but still laying her heart out to us. Laura Ashley definitely takes you on a ride of emotions where she talks about the ups and down of a relationship. She tells us what she went through mentally and emotionally through her writing and the toll that us humans take when being involved deeply with another human.

She even has poems mentioning her religion and believing in God. I liked that because Laura shows us all of her! I would definitely recommend this to anyone who’s experienced lost love and needs to find some strength. Laura will give you that !

some of my favorites:


I always thought being selfish had negativity involved
Until I experienced situations that made my sanity dissolved

Being selfish if appropriate depending on the context
When you realize all your energy and emotions are put to the

Instead of investing and attaching yourself to please others
Take your own soul and provide what it needs to recover

You used me

You confused me

You abused me

Even bruised me

Only to excuse me

Fatal Attraction

You dig and I crawl.
I love and I fall.

You watch and I stare.
While you bury my heart, it’s unfair.

I gave it all and you received.
You promised me the same but I was deceived.

I thought it was love and it was real.
But you played around like it was no big deal.

I’d cry and I’d hurt,
While you craved and you flirt.

Not for me, not with me,
But with the fish swimming amongst the sea.

It’s okay, you murdered my being with no remorse.
Because, honestly, the heart you buried took a different

No, you won’t mourn who used to love you with all her might.
It’s the new girl who she became and escaped into the

Table for One is currently on sale for 99¢ via Kindle in USA and the UK!
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my poetry book is on sale!


IMG_0594hey everyone! i hope you are all having a wonderful day and weekend to come! just wanted to let you all know that while i’m at BookCon, the paperback version of my poetry book is officially on sale for $6.38 via Amazon for the next few days. it’s also on sale on other parts of the world via Amazon. if they ship to you, check it out! be aware that my poetry book has mature content. and if you aren’t into paperbacks, i also have an ebook version with kindle unlimited as well! below are the links!

GoodreadsAmazon USAAmazon UK

one day i met a guy
who stole my heart,
we created a world
for ourselves.
and another day
he broke my heart
and shattered
my soul.

i took the tattered
pieces of this
broken soul and
became anew.

– here lies the hurting, the healing, and the learning

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it’s 11:somethingP.M. and i wrote a thing

i have tendencies of
simply disappearing.
if i don’t want to be seen
by you, i will make that happen.

sometimes, i feel like
i’m just a facade.
you see me online…
you read my writing…
but you still don’t get
all of me.

there are pieces of myself
i have yet to discover.
there are pieces of myself
that i will take to my grave.

i find the human mind
very fascinating,
deep like the ocean.
never – ending.


Poetry Book Haul

Here I am with another book haul! I mean, did the title give it away? lol! As a writer of poetry who also has a book, I feel like it’s so important to support other writers in the genre as well. I also love to read poetry. I have found myself not feeling alone a lot of the times while reading others work. There are so many indie poetry authors out right now that I feel like their voices need to be heard. Some poetry isn’t for everyone and that’s okay! While some like dark poetry, others might like positive happy poetry and some just don’t like poetry at all. I hope you find something here that you may like! =)

The order goes by purchased date!
Titles link to Goodreads

  • Honeybee by Trista Mateer
    Having been previously described as an “aggressively personal poet”, Trista Mateer takes this to heart and then to paper in her first collection. Presented more or less in the order it was written, the poetry in Honeybee is in turns bitter, tender, and messy. Following the course of a little more than a year, the poems showcased in Honeybee chronicle the on-again off-again process of letting go.
  • The Princess Saves Herself in this One by Amanda Lovelace (Andrews McMeel)
    “Ah, life- the thing that happens to us while we’re off somewhere else blowing on dandelions & wishing ourselves into the pages of our favorite fairy tales.”
    A poetry collection divided into four different parts: the princess, the damsel, the queen, & you. the princess, the damsel, & the queen piece together the life of the author in three stages, while you serves as a note to the reader & all of humankind. Explores life & all of its love, loss, grief, healing, empowerment, & inspirations.
  • Empty Hotel Rooms Meant For Us by Christina Hart
    This collection of poetry focuses on dismembered loves, present and past, as past lovers aren’t actually in the past for the author. She carries parts of them with her, even though their hearts are no longer hers.


  • Her Treasures by Fida Islaih
    Islaih shares her travel to Malaysia. She continues to share more of her thoughts on Palestine. More poems include her love for her sisters, faith and words.
  • Tell Me Where It Hurts by J.R. Rogue
    Bestselling author J.R. Rogue returns with her second volume of poetry, Tell Me Where It Hurts, a raw, heartbreaking, and honest glimpse into the demons she has faced in her 33 years.
  • Mad Woman by Kat Savage
    Author of Learning to Speak, Kat Savage, returns with Mad Woman whish is comprised of 40 pieces that capture her stream on conscious, her confessions, and her strange thoughts. In Mad Woman, she bears it all and embraces her madness driven by loneliness and disappointment.


  • soft magic. by Upsile Chisala
    ‘soft magic.’ is the debut collection of prose and poetry by Malawian writer, Upile Chisala. This book explores the self, joy, blackness, gender, matters of the heart, the experience of Diaspora, spirituality and most of all, how we survive. ‘soft magic.’ is a shared healing journey.
  • Walking through the Forest: love, loss and other tall trees by Elizabeth Ann
    love, loss, pain, healing, poetry.
    Elizabeth shares her experience with heartache and grief by embracing acceptance and self-love in a collection of poetry written with straight forward vulnerability.
    Join her walk through the forest, surrounded by love, loss, and other tall trees.
  • Stuff I’ve Been Feeling Lately by Alicia Cook (Andrews McMeel)
    In Alicia Cook’s second poetic effort, designed in the style of an old mixtape, she sets her thoughts to a nostalgic tune. There is no Table of Contents. Instead, there is a “Track List,” making it easy to refer to them to your friends with a, “Hey did you read track seven?!” There are no chapters. Instead, the book is divided into two parts, or as one would say in the 90’s, two “sides.” Side A holds poetry that touches on all aspects of the human condition like life, death, love, moving on, evolving, growing up, hometowns, family dynamic, life after trauma, and make-ups and breakups. Side B holds the “remixes” of these poems, in the form of blackout poetry, also known as “found poetry.” Side B gives the material a fresh twist by creating new poetry out of Side A. There is also a very special surprise at the end of each track.


  • Yellow by Alannah Radburn
    This book is a collection of poems. Yellow explores the feelings of love, happiness, heartbreak, grief, resilience and healing. It is an homage to the author’s most recent relationship. Strong feminist and LGBT+ undertones emanate from within the pages. Though it celebrates a relationship between two women, its themes and emotions are universal.
  • I Am More Than A Daydream by Jennae Cecelia
    How often do you daydream? For most, it is many times a day. We stare out the window instead of the task in front of us. We fantasize about where we would much rather be, the significant other we long for, our ideal job, the body we hope to see in the mirror, a healthier mindset, pure happiness in our lives and the lives of others, peace in this chaotic world. However, how many of us daydreamers believe these pleasant thoughts will truly turn into our reality? Daydreams are more than just short bursts of happiness that only our minds can see. I know I am more than a daydream; and you are, too.
  • lavender petals and a wild heart by Cheyenne Raine
    A lavender sky of words, thoughts, poetry and prose written with love and curiosity. A collection inspired by the emotions that flow from the heart due to the gentle presence of a wild and adventurous soul. This book dives into the mixture of warm and lovely feelings that blossom when adoring another’s heart.
  • Table for One by Laura Ashley Laraque
    This book talks about a female who has experienced what many have, heart break. In the midst of her pain, she takes on a journey to learn to love herself. Also, expressing emotions and looking back on memories that although left scars, have led her to sit at her table alone. Finding yourself is crucial and she explains how she accomplishes this day by day.
  • Bones in the Garden by McKayla Debonis
    Here lies the anatomy of the first Heartbreak.
    take my advice, you can grow, you can heal, you can learn, no matter what.
    Just pick yourself up and keep going.

and that is it for now! have you read any of these poetry books? let me know in the comments so we can talk ❤

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